I was sitting in class the other day and something was bothering me. I felt very pissed off and I didn't know why. Then I remembered what it was. Something happened earlier in the day. Someone said something to me that I really didn't like. The more I thought about it the more angry I got. It's not just something they said. It's a situation that has been happening for a while now and my one friend said I should "grow some balls and stand up for myself" but I honestly don't want to cause drama. I want the situation to fix itself but it seems that it has only gotten worse. At this point I don't want to save the friendship because I know what is going to happen in a year and I particularly do not care anymore. It's an odd situation and anyone else would not have let it get this far.. but when dealing with the mental capacity of a child, you have to watch what you say, and that's why I will only leave you guessing as to what the situation is.
I lost last weekend because I was caring for my dad. Right after my class ended at 4:30 on Thursday and I was getting ready for a 3 day weekend, my dad calls me frantic having a panic attack because my mom went out of town for the weekend. He was afraid of being alone in the house and asked if I could change my plans and come over with my boyfriend. We spent the evening with him and I had plans to go out with some friends that night since Thursdays are my Fridays so once my dad decided to take the dogs for their evening walk my boyfriend and I decided to leave as well. I'm halfway through putting on my makeup and I get another frantic phone call of my dad telling me he's going to take himself to the hospital. So my boyfriend and I rush back over again. It's not an easy job taking care of someone who is panicked and has severe anxiety.. it's not easy seeing your father like that either. I spent the entire weekend taking care of him not getting any school work done. Thank God my one teacher gave me an extension on my paper but I still haven't finished it. I feel bad but I honestly think that I just need a weekend to do it because weekdays are so hectic especially with severe spring time allergies.
I was tested for what I'm allergic to. I have allergies 11 months out of the year. First it's tree season, and I am VERY allergic to Maple and Birch trees. Then it's grass season and I am VERY allergic to THREE kinds of grasses, which is all three that they test you for. Oh and then there is dust all year round especially in a college house that no one cleans that I am VERY allergic to. The doctor scared me into questioning whether or not I should get the allergy shot so I haven't gotten it yet. All you have to do is tell a hypochondriac symptoms of some rare disease and bing next thing I know I have esaopholocatitus, a rare disease found in camels. So of course when they give me the allergy shot I am going to freak out and think my throat is closing and that I'm going into shock and they'll slam an epi pen into my butt cheek and I'll probably pass out and hit my head on the way down and wake up in a hospital bed with esaopholocatitus. See what I mean? You can't tell me these things.
Anyway, today is May 5th or in Spanish it's iiiCinco de Mayoooo!!! (the i's are supposed to be upside down ! but I couldn't figure out how to make them). May 5th is my half birthday which is reason to celebrate so grab the chips and salsa and limes! Everyone celebrates my half birthday which is why all the Mexican bars are going to be packed today. It's all about me! Right?
