Thursday, September 30, 2010

Anxiety and other A words that start with C

This was an interesting article:


for those of you that don't like reading ginormous small print articles, this one is worth reading to about 2/3 towards the bottom.

I haven't written in awhile and haven't been very motivated these days. Something weird happened to me yesterday. I went to the men's volleyball open gym to get some good practice in before my season starts. Their practice was much harder than I expected including a fair amount of running and sprinting. After warm-ups, we were on our second drill and I was standing in line when for some reason I started having an anxiety attack. I got a funny feeling in my chest and started freaking out. Obviously I was fine but I ran out of the gym and called my boyfriend to come pick me up immediately. I wasn't running or breathing heavy. I was just standing there in line waiting for my turn to partake in the drill. I may sound dumb saying this but my mom said that I should research anxiety coping mechanisms so that I am not reliant on my boyfriend to drop everything and come help me feel better. I'm sure there are lots of other ways to cope but my sure fire way of getting rid of anxiety is my boyfriend.
I learned an interesting fact in my communications class today. Kissing can significantly lower cholesterol, stress, and obviously increase your satisfaction in a relationship. But going further, communication in general increases your physiological health in general. There have been studies supporting the idea that chronic conflict, lack of showing affection, or isolation from people can have the same amount of negative health affects as smoking. So if your reading this, I highly recommend going home and giving your significant other a big smooch. And if you don't have a significant other, don't stress about it, don't isolate yourself, and say what's on your mind. Don't hold back.
I was reading this scientific journal article for my psychology class and discovered other interesting facts. Watching negative news stories affect your mood in a negative way, well duh. But going further, it can have significant effects on your anxiety levels and on the ideas you are currently worried about. The study showed high correlation between watching negatively portrayed news and (it's a word. google it) catastrophizing personal worries. Basically, catastrophizing personal worries is building up a negative thought in your head to become something much greater than it is. For example, if your sales at work are lower than normal, you may begin to build this thought up in your mind to oh my gosh I'm going to be fired when realistically you really only had a slow day for any miscellaneous reason. Maybe a better example is if you are a hypochondriac and you get a headache and it doesn't go away right away, you may begin to catastrophize and think oh gosh what if I have a brain tumor or oh gosh I'm going to die. And apparently watching something negative that makes you feel sad or other emotion can cause your brain to dwell on some negative aspect or worry in your life and turn it into a catastrophic event.
When I googled catastrophizing, I found some cool websites that talk you through how to recognize when you do this and how to train yourself not to in order to live a long, happy life because as we now know, stress can higher your cholesterol and cause heart disease.
Oh one more interesting fact. Heart disease is the number one cause of death for males and females in the United States. Maybe that has something to do with the competition between news companies and leisure television shows for air space. Apparently negative news stories that provoke emotion are more interesting and draw more people to watch than happy sunshine stories that make people's minds healthier.

Friday, September 3, 2010

Little Black Dress

Today I brought out an old black dress I wore many times for orchestra concerts and high school dances. My classic black dress. Today I had to wear it for a different occasion. Never during the countless times I wore it before did I ever dream of wearing it to a funeral. Today we remembered Trevor Powell, squeezed into a good sized church. It was nice to see old faces but so sad under such circumstances. It was evident that Trevor touched many lives as I've never seen the church packed fuller even on Easter. My face still hurts and is the size of a golf ball on one side from getting my wisdom teeth out but no pain medication could get rid of the hurt I felt for Trevor and his family. Best friend Alex Myerson gave an amazing speech and was incredibly composed afterward. I don't know what it is like to lose a bestfriend in such a way and I can only imagine how hard it was for him to get up there and talk to such a large crowd. The Lord truly works in mysterious ways. Last Friday night I couldn't get to sleep due to an anxiety attack worrying about my wisdom teeth coming out on Tuesday and then Sunday night suddenly my wisdom teeth became the last thing on my mind. How could I be so selfish? The last couple of days I've tried to think what would Trevor want? He was kind to everyone. Never frowned. Wanted the best for everyone. I wish there was more I could do in light of such news and this is what I decided. I think the best anyone can do is be the best friend you can be to everyone and to be kind to everyone. This is how Trevor was and if nothing else, I think this is what Trevor would want. When I looked around at the teary eyes yet smiling warm faces, I knew that I may not be the only one with these thoughts. I pray that this isn't goodbye Trevor, but see you later.